As I have been reading through Genesis, I've noticed a theme. God makes covenant with mankind, and then mankind struggles at times to believe God's word. From the foundation of the earth this has been a reoccurring theme that still plays out in history today. All of us are born into a life of bondage and are in need of rescuing. However, bondage can often become a comfortable and familiar state for us to live in. Just like the Israelites when the Lord delivered them out of slavery they wanted to go back to slavery as they faced famine and hardships. God had promised them to give them a land following with milk and honey, but the land of slavery was what was most familiar to them. Therefore, they valued slavery more than freedom, because it was familiar. This is the same situation we find ourselves into today fighting daily between slavery and a life of freedom. At times it is easier for me to be negative then to have hope. I know hopelessness and I am comfortable living in a state of hopelessness. If I am hopeless, I cannot be disappointed. However, when I choose hopelessness, I am only robbing myself of the freedom God wants me to walk in. Think of it this way, if you knew that someone one was stealing from you on a daily basis and you could stop him or her, wouldn't you? Consequently, for many of us the truth is we are being robbed daily and do nothing to stop the thief. Slavery starts in the mind and then manifest in our actions. These are the following questions then I have to ask myself. What thoughts am I allowing to run rampant in my mind that is robbing me of the life of freedom that God designed for me to have? What choices am I making that keeps me from the long awaited Promised Land? I may feel safe in the land of slavery, but if I insist on being a slave, I will never live life as a freed man.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
In a couple months I will be crossing the threshing floor over to a new decade of life, yes the thirty-somethings. As I approach the ending of my 20's, I continue to anticipate what awaits me over the threshing floor. Will I suddenly feel like a grown-up? (Funny thing is, I am still waiting for that moment ha..ha....). Well, thirties beware, I am prepared for you! In fact, I am expecting God even more in this decade to come as He continues to mold and shape me!
Sunday, July 12, 2009
"The unpredictable twists and turns of life can drive you crazy. Or you can learn to enjoy the journey. The choice is yours." Mark Batterson "Wild Goose Chase"
I am so thankful that even when I don't understand the path that is laid before me, God sees clearly. Right now I am walking in what I feel as though is "uncharted territory." After I graduated college my heart was to get married, be a wife and a mother. I really had no desire for a professional career at the time. David and I have been married now for two and half years. We have completely surrendered having children to the Lord, and for now my womb is not open. However, I do not rely on circumstances to dictate the faithfulness of God. I am still confident that God has plans for David and I to be parents, but must continue to keep my heart desires before the Lord. God has been so faithful though to slowly change my heart. Even though I desire to be a mom, I see opportunities before me to make a difference in children that have already been brought into the world. Slowly, my heart for teaching is being birthed, and have found myself enrolled in graduate work. David and I have a choice we can become frustrated or we can choose to Praise God. I will not waiver in the goodness of God! I will remain open to what the Lord has planned for David and I, I will press in, trusting that God's plans for us is to give us a hope and a future(Jeremiah 29:11-12). I did not plan for this "unexpected journey," but have learned that the unexpected detours in our lives, although unfamiliar have the opportunity to lead us to place we could have never planned for ourselves.
If you are in a place of "uncharted territory" remain confident that God is familiar with all your steps.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Spring is here! Well, at least according to the calendar spring has been here almost a month. However, weather wise I am not so sure what season it is anymore. David and I just celebrated Easter with his family. They live just a hop, skip and a jump away from us in Ozark, MO. At the end of April we will have been here officially one year. David will be finishing up his first year at MSU. He has excelled in his course work this year. I am looking forward to summer break. I am so thankful that my husband is able to work full time and go to school full time, but I miss him a lot. We will switch places this summer, and I will get to be the college student in the summer. I will start classes at Evangel University in June. I am looking forward to learning and connecting with other professionals in the area. We are thankful, and continue to look to God to guide each step as we walk by faith.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
About a week ago I attended a women's night at our church. The theme was "It is time." This same reoccuring theme continues to come up in my life. The last couple months I have been participating in a Beth Moore Study, Esther: It is tough being a woman. There are many themes throughout Esther, but the underlining one is God's providential timing. Did you know that throughout the book of Esther God name is not mentioned once, but as you read through the pages His name is all over the circumstances. This is where I am at in this season of life. I know confidently that God moved us to Springfield, yet I am walking in a season that requires more faith. However, in the past when I have made steps of faith there have often been aha moments where I was saying to myself, "yes this is exactly where I am callled." Life is springfield is more of a hidden season. I feel as though I am being tucked away, and just drawing on God's faithfulness in preparation for something yet unknown. Eventhough I do not know what the next steps are, there is a confidence growing inside me that timing is key! Be encouraged in whatever season of life you are in God is faithful, and His banner over us is love!